Probably will be updated A LOT since i have a lot on my mind (as if anyone cares)

Здесь будет больше всего обновлений, ибо рас3.14здеться я мастер...
(сюда если хотите назад на русскую версию сайта!)

PT: Olá, aqui está o meu bloguezinho da merda! Ali eu vou escrever em todas linguas possiveis, maiormente russo, ingles e portugues. Tenho preguiça de traduzir essa porcaria toda...

Ali eu vou ser mais ativa pois sempre tenho palavrões a dizer.

Oh hey! There's my first english post, and it's mostly done for me to tell how to do some things better, because i wanna see the world a better place. 

So, anyhoo, let's get started.

I'm glad i left social media behind, and only use certain sites to communicate with those that didn't still, master the web of the olde. Well, fault's on gatekeepers who blame the new for not knowing HTML XD

Because nowadays, what i see on social media scares me to the bone - so much pessimism, so called "dooming", everything is %name%"slop", nothing gets better and yadda yadda other useless thing. A lot of bad news today, with focus on exactly, why everything's so bad and how we're all ultimately, irreversibly, FUCKED. That's not the thing to do, honestly. 

While i perfectly understand venting (i do that a lot) and usually, venting is healthy because it allows you to throw out these bad things out of your system because they don't matter anymore, it's a slippery slope before it ultimately becomes psychological self-harm. Why else you would seek out bad news and cry under every single post how life is unfair? This is also dangerous because this also leaks into your life and projects it, ultimately making matters worse. For example, imagine someone living in an unsavoury household. It's okay to cry about it, but once this person discovers that the world is very bad according to a neckbeard that didn't leave their basement today, it gets worse, so much that minor interactions hurt like a searing knife. OR even, the person just gives up and never moves on - staying forever in their little "hamster cage". Unknowingly, despite supporting mental health issues as most of us claim, we're unknowingly making it worse for each other. Person vents? "such is life lol" "go get mental help" (crazy how therapists are almost inacessible to most) "haha i don't care", or parroted advice thoughts such as "the horrors persist but so do we", "your skin is paper, don't cut it" "nooo don't kill yourself think about capybaras" - something i call "capybara positivity". I know that the intention is to help, but something that helps better is geniunely being there, or offer advice or a way out, not just wallow too or offer a repeated quote. Or to distract, because that also works. 

And there's going to be people calling that "energetic vampirism". Psychological buzzword, and i don't like it. 

For example, i've been to social media and i wanted to remove my eyes with how people overuse certain words: "DARVO", "Golden Child", "Scapegoat", "Black Sheep", "Survival Mode", "Flying Monkey", "NMOM, EDAD" and other lingo i'll never understand (and frankly, i don't). Almost feels like i'm listening to a cringe horror-video game song made by a youtuber to cash out on them kids.

Let people call things they want to call it, but keep it in your mind about it's true definition. Sometimes it helps more than identifying what that is because it allows for healing and feeling control, unless they ask for the specific word for it. I'm honestly so tired of reading all those repeated things - almost like everyone's playing psychologists. If you wanna help people - learn from other psychologists or else you'll cause a lot of ruckus. We as a society should be focused on helping each other, but we should do it with just a bit of quality, not just parrot the same "go to therapy" methodic. Even if therapy does help (it always does), it's always hard to find a quality therapist nowadays or access to therapy. Therapy should be done good so - that the person doesn't end up in an even worse state. That includes dependance or straight up neglect. That being said - none of us are licensed to be someone's therapist and it's not our buisness, but at the same time, just giving the right word can make a lot of difference. 

If you're hopeless, beaten through and feeling like you want to die - read this, even if it's going to take some mins: You are honestly worth everything good, and you are on your right way, even if it is just small steps, if you wanna recover. But take it into your hands and move, choose the better instead of something short, and there will be a day, here you'll feel the breeze on your body and realize "damn, i survived". Reward youself for progress. I don't know you that much, but i'm assured that if you take it into your hands, you'll be fine. One day, you'll live and be free, even if it feels like an eternity. Ignore everyone who keeps telling you the world is shit - you are the sole maker of your own destiny. Now go on and do benevolent chaos. :)

Thanks for reading this and keeping on with me.